“The sudden disappointment of a hope leaves a scar which the ultimate fulfillment of that hope never entirely removes.”- Thomas Hardy
Now this guy knew what he was talking about.... like many of you out there, i too have faced "disappointments" .... disappointments in love disappointments in faith and disappointments of hopes.. but what does that leave us with ??the initial sting ...is painful (to say the least) but the end result can be drastic.....
in my mind it leads to two scenario's
- total loss in the belief in that person, thing or event ever materializing..leading to a complete breakdown and fear to ever pursue it again.
- an attitude that allows you to just keep pushing.... just a little bit more to achieve....to preserve...
option 1 helps us harbor hatred, fear anxiety and anger towards the object..which is a much more comfortable place to be, rather that having to face all the Bullshit that comes with fighting....
what can make this even worse..... is when you are the "disappointer" ..when your father, teacher or loved one says those dreaded words.... " i'm disappointed in you" or variations of that .... thats when the worst happens... the mind ceases to work and the heart just stops....
In my life these words lead to serious complications..they have been said almost never,although off late i have been hearing them alot.....
disappointment...a word with so many dimentions...and so many emotions attached.....
today i was disappointed....my heart broke and i have decided to settle with option 1.... what option would you choose???
